Sunday Morning Cow Church

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My dirt road days.. are almost done…

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look back once in a while

We all do..

Sometimes it is a phone call, a gimps of someone or something, a text, or even a photo..

We all look back.. the trick is to adjust your focus so the present is clear…. and so is the past.

sometimes hard to do when you are still moving forward..

Funny sometimes how my brain works.. This post and picture have nothing what so ever to do with leaving my husband.. it looks that way.. it reads that way.. but it is not.

Black Sheep

sunset… moonrise

Frustrated to near tears over inability to capture how this really looked..

I did manage a nice Sunset pic.. I took the moon pic.. just turned around and took the sunset one.. lol..

words are elusive these days… and the camera is fickle…

and I am waiting for a place to land.. rest.. recoup and recover from the  latest blow..

black sheep

Finally Something..

It has been a very tough week..

Not many pictures I have even Tried to take have been worth a crap… I am going to chalk it up to how I have been feeling.. Lost and alone.. sure for just a few minutes at a time.. but the feeling has been just under the surface since I learned my ex is letting the house go back to the bank..  Gone is the small bit of security I had.. gone  and well sure, I’ll be fine.. I’ll manage, do something different than I planned.. all that crap.. but it has colored my perspective a bit for the moment..

looking for a new perspective.. hoping for something to shine for me.

Black Sheep

 

old shed.. again

taken in September of 2008 with an old Olympus FE110

I think I was trying to take a picture of the setting sun.. and silly me.. thought it was kind of a crap picture.. NOW..it is exactly the kind of thing love to try to capture..

Black Sheep

just by chance..

as are most of the pictures I take..

I found the cord for my camera and these are two of what I found..

this was the night of the Blue Moon 08/31/12

 

I took several of this sunset September 6th sunset with my ipod and kodak camera.. all of them were amazing,,

but I have to tell you.. I feel a storm coming.. just a feeling.. could be interesting..

Black Sheep

days go by…

and I have just been doing what I do..

Taking care of my kids, working, recovering, spending time with good friends….

reward for my patience..

sometimes wishing I had more time in each day…

to pursue the things I love to do..

to be with the people I love.. and love to be with..

but basically..

“Happy” describes how the days go by..

Black Sheep

 

long days…

I’ve been working them..

and a few days ago.. my body finally said.. “This is IT!  I’m done!”

and when I was not working.. I was laying on the couch,

being held down by a Chihuahua..

.. trying to get better and get my voice back.. the “Point and look at my kids menacingly” way of discipline just does not have the same effect as yelling.. they laugh at me..

today for the first time in almost 3 weeks I believe I am going to survive..

I milked cows this morning and OMG!!  – between the slow learning new heifer, 3 cows in heat and my own pms .. I nearly kicked back after the fourth near miss..-  I did give them a stern talking to.. lol .. it helped.. no one else tried to kick me..

Then I had a meeting for my youngest in regards to her FINALLY getting into preschool and then it was back to work to begin painting the parlor ceiling.. and prep the doors.. white milk house and parlor.. RED doors..

Then.. after work today I picked beans from my bosses garden.. it is supposed to frost tonight.. so I had free reign to take all I wanted.. I got 3/4 of a 5 gallon bucket full.

Today was a long.. but good day

Yesterdays sunset from my back yard, this was another one of those sunsets where the color lasted only a few minuets.. then was gone in a flash..

..although MS has decided I don’t really need to walk right most of the time.. at the moment it is more just irritating and moderately painful than debilitating.. I hope that with the cool weather it gets no worse.. cuz if I’m gonna look drunk.. I should be.. lol    it’s interesting tho.. I don’t think I realize how often MS effects me till I start writing it down..

I think I am back and ready to live and play again.. and I pray I am never that sick again.

Black Sheep