let it snow let it snow let it snow…

8 inches of wet sloppy snow so far today… a possible 12 more to come..
Farm – Cows got milked this morning… relief milker is staying at the farm to cover this pm and tomorrow am milking.. all calves and heifers are securely tucked away in loafing sheds.. cows are safely in barn with plenty of feed..
Home – horses and cows have bales
young stock/steers are tucked in shed with plenty of bedding/water/hay.. babies locked in hutch with warm water delivered every 3 hours.. “room service”
bacon cheeseburger and fries on deck for dinner – Check!
Popcorn cued for movie – Check!
nothing left to do but watch it snow watch it snow watch it snow – Check!
and nap..
oh so happily home-bound and snowed in..

PEOPLE are crazy!!

Seriously.. Society and all it participants are fucking NUTS! …just saying

for the first time in 6 months.. I am shutting down and backing the fuck away from those around me.. too much drama.. too much shit.. I spent many many years alone.. isolated on my farm.. and this shit.. these people and their shit.. how they try to blame and drag me and mine into it all.. is just too much for me for a while.. I am going to close and lock the door.. not answer the phone.. gather my dogs and kids close.. go to work and come home.. need people as little as possible.. and let me tell you.. I am a FUCKING MASTER at not needing people.. for long long periods of time..

"told ya somethin was comin.. listen sooner next time"

“told ya somethin was comin.. listen sooner next time”

Time to spend with kids and dogs and horse.. reading books, learning about my job,  taking pics of what moves me.. spinning the yarn I need.. unwinding my brain.. letting people untangle from me, my kids and my life..

Black Sheep







My old tractor shed

Taken in July of this year..

just a few weeks before I moved…

The storm that was passing overhead reminded me that any storms I was facing at that moment.. or storms to come.. would eventually pass.. and mostly be forgotten..

Storm and tractor shed…


Each pic is just a bit different..

And.. so far.. I have weathered the passing storms well..

Black Sheep


…. always better

People will ALWAYS hurt you .. one way or another.. some time or another.. even when they don’t mean to or want to..

SHE will NEVER hurt me..

ONLY by leaving me will she hurt me..
She won’t judge me for what I cannot help I am or have..
She walks by my side and carries me when I need it..
and not just on her back..
Her spirit is strong and gives me wings.
Makes me pay attention when I need that.
Lets me get away with nothing.. nor I her.
She teaches me who I am and helps me learn what
I can do and be..
even when I don’t want to know..

Here’s hoping TODAY.. is a better day.

oh yeah.. she reminds me.. “take better care of yourself Damn it.. No one else ever has.. and no one is going to.. so you better!”

Black Sheep