So.. It seems that I have landed.. at least temporarily.. I have milked on this big farm several times a week for 2 and 1/2 years.. since the house I have been renting for almost 4 years has been sold, we have till the end of the school yer to move.. we are looking for housing on or very near this farm.. The owners value me as an employee and are working hard to get me a place and then I will permanently land here.. if not.. I will keep moving along..
It takes 2 of us and We milk anywhere from a low 150 cows to a high of 225.. it’s funny how I don’t always recognize every face.. but I know who is who by Udder and Moo.. lol
I really hope this position can become permanent and full time for me.. There are learning and growing opportunities here.. I will get to milk full time, do some calf care and be an assistant to the herdsman..
but most of all.. Here there will be safety and security for me and my family..
A very merry cow church
A heifer Christmas song.
Sung to the tune of jingle bells
Oh the weather outside is frightful
And the cows in here are spiteful
Since we’ve no milk for you
What are those
Watch your toes
Kiss my nose
It has been way too long.. but winter here has been cold and dreary and so have I. MS pain levels have been high this winter.. almost higher than I can tolerate.
This is one of the few pictures I have taken in recent weeks.. it is not spectacular but it tells me spring is coming.. I need spring to come this year..
Seriously.. Society and all it participants are fucking NUTS! …just saying
for the first time in 6 months.. I am shutting down and backing the fuck away from those around me.. too much drama.. too much shit.. I spent many many years alone.. isolated on my farm.. and this shit.. these people and their shit.. how they try to blame and drag me and mine into it all.. is just too much for me for a while.. I am going to close and lock the door.. not answer the phone.. gather my dogs and kids close.. go to work and come home.. need people as little as possible.. and let me tell you.. I am a FUCKING MASTER at not needing people.. for long long periods of time..
Time to spend with kids and dogs and horse.. reading books, learning about my job, taking pics of what moves me.. spinning the yarn I need.. unwinding my brain.. letting people untangle from me, my kids and my life..
I have been spending it.. which is ok.. since I have nothing else to spend.. lol
Spending it with my kids, working, getting my feelings hurt.. recovering.. worrying that if I hurt less.. it might mean I miss something.. I just hope it means I am getting smarter.
it has been a while since a photo opportunity has presented it self to me.. and it’s not like I have not been looking.. waiting.. hoping..
Taken with tried and true trusty Ipod.. I am still searching for my camera cord..
so back I go.. to parent, work, and learn.. to hope and dream.. to wait
16 to 19 hours days since Thursday.. working my usual morning shift and going in in the evening trying to get everyone tagged, photographed and get some paperwork done.. I am taking over management of the dairy herd.. so much to learn! But I am LOVING the challenge.
I am Wore out..
I am taking this evening off.. sitting with my kids, playing with my puppy, making a nice sit down meal and relaxing..
I looked for pics all weekend… and only yesterday morning did I find anything..