Life.. in snapshots

Everything has a story

When I got divorced and subsequently moved 4 times in the past 6 years.. space became precious.. things became superfluous.. with a few exceptions..

The Bourbon Decanter on the right was my grandmothers.. I wish I had spent more time with her.. It has been preciously packed and moved and resides in my kitchen window for now.. It has been with me for 28 years and I hope one of my children will treasure it when I am gone..

The Bowl in the center was my mothers.. an unimportant forgotten “thing” left behind after her estate sale.. It is Porcelain and Lead.. an Oriental design and holds a beautiful Green Glass bottle stopper for a bottle I have never seen..

The Wire Chicken basket on the left was a gift from my youngest daughter .. she found it at an Antique shop and we plan to start using it to collect our eggs this spring..  filling it with memories that only a Wire Chicken Basket can hold..

The red and white Crochet item in the Chicken Basket was my mothers.. it moves from place to place in my life and home… and will likely return to residing on a shelf under a glass bowl of sort sort soon.. I don’t want it to get too sun faded..

The gray building out my window is a Sauna we are going to do some minor fixing to this spring and it will become the focal point of my back yard.. surrounded by a simple patio and flower and vegetable planters.. Tiki torches and Adirondack chairs on the left and in front and horse pasture to the right.. and adorned with simple paintings my younger daughter and I did last fall.. and become an interesting View even in the winter..

Life in snapshots..



things.. and stuff and my Puppy!

been just rolling along…. working, doing mom stuff…

Ivan the day I brought him home.. SIX WEEKS AGO…

and he has at LEAST quadrupled in size!

He is a very smart puppy… I forgot how focused a GSD can be…

As I will never pee alone again. but that’s ok.. since my kids grew up a bit I find I have trouble peeing when alone.. lol

so, even with my Ivan keeping me busy.. I have found myself with too much free time.. time to think.. and today I went to Ruby’s Pantry.. a “Pay $20 and get lots more than $20 worth of stuff” place.. cuz I am still kinda poor.. and I ran into my old bosses friend.. who was so glad to see me.. she promised Vi that she would keep an eye on me and she did not know how to get a hold of me these last 8 months.. we talked.. and then.. I cried… quietly.. I tend to deny stress.. pretend that all the Big things…(my friend dying, losing my cows and job, losing my mother, herniating discs in my back, tearing tendons in my knee, frostbite on my toes, MOVING, job hunting.. just so much) going on are really just little things and that I can handle them all.. which I CAN.. but I rarely give into the stress.. I just keep on going.. seeing my beloved friends friend.. made me miss her even more.. little by little I am acknowledging things and working them out.. and in the mean time.. I am trying to remain positive and happy… and mostly.. it’s working.. having a puppy helps..

Hopefully I will be back here regularly again soon..


Sunday Morning Cow church

So.. It seems that I have landed.. at least temporarily.. I have milked on this big farm several times a week for 2 and 1/2 years.. since the house I have been renting for almost 4 years has been sold, we have till the end of the school yer to move.. we are looking for housing on or very near this farm.. The owners value me as an employee and are working hard to get me a place and then I will permanently land here.. if not.. I will keep moving along..

the Sunrise here is beautiful, different but beautiful

The parlor is very nice.. modern and efficient. 17 aside New Zealand Swing Style with automatic takeoffs..

It takes 2 of us and We milk anywhere from a low 150 cows to a high of 225.. it’s funny how I don’t always recognize every face.. but I know who is who by Udder and Moo.. lol

The ladies here are top quality.. and I personally like most of them.. although my absolute favorite lady is out on vacation.. I will introduce her in a few weeks when she gets back..


I really hope this position can become permanent and full time for me.. There are learning and growing opportunities here.. I will get to milk full time, do some calf care and be an assistant to the herdsman..

but most of all.. Here there will be safety and security for me and my family..



let it snow let it snow let it snow…

8 inches of wet sloppy snow so far today… a possible 12 more to come..
Farm – Cows got milked this morning… relief milker is staying at the farm to cover this pm and tomorrow am milking.. all calves and heifers are securely tucked away in loafing sheds.. cows are safely in barn with plenty of feed..
Home – horses and cows have bales
young stock/steers are tucked in shed with plenty of bedding/water/hay.. babies locked in hutch with warm water delivered every 3 hours.. “room service”
bacon cheeseburger and fries on deck for dinner – Check!
Popcorn cued for movie – Check!
nothing left to do but watch it snow watch it snow watch it snow – Check!
and nap..
oh so happily home-bound and snowed in..

Sunday Morning Cow Church

Sunday morning cow church. ..
After a hellishly long week
I came home to my own newest parishioners. Full of milk now and all tucked in snug and warm for a nice Sunday afternoon nap… sweet dreams “Phineas and ferb”


Fresh Hot Apple Pie kinda happy

I had all but forgotten how much I love to bake..

baking pie.. cooking daughter singing and dancing in my kitchen.. dogs lounging quietly, Puppy sleeping in a kids lap.. and a peace in my heart..

This kind of happy.. is why I left.. and what we all need more of..

Black Sheep

look back once in a while

We all do..

Sometimes it is a phone call, a gimps of someone or something, a text, or even a photo..

We all look back.. the trick is to adjust your focus so the present is clear…. and so is the past.

sometimes hard to do when you are still moving forward..

Funny sometimes how my brain works.. This post and picture have nothing what so ever to do with leaving my husband.. it looks that way.. it reads that way.. but it is not.

Black Sheep

Pretty in Pink

I took my daughter to the clinic for a recheck of her injured leg..

OH.. That’s right.. I did not say here what happened last weekend.. LOL
Well… my 11 year old daughter was playing in the barn.. where she was not supposed to be.. and got a Pitchfork stuck in her leg!! in by her shin and out the back of her calf..  she pulled it out.. walked to the house aided by her totally freaked out 4 year old sister.. surprisingly little blood!  They did Surgery to make sure there was no major damage and to clean it out.. It’s all good and she is healing well.. and let me say.. BRAVE GIRL!

We got to the clinic and were surprised to see some flowers, not only hanging in there.. but full and bright.. these are the best of what I took.. It was COLD and WINDY.. but the girls wanted me to take pictures..

We are already missing the colors of summer…

Pretty in Pink

Not sure what this plant is called but it’s a beautiful ..Ravishing Red…

These were taken with my Ipod.. and I don’t think I am ever going to get over how some of the pictures I take with it turn out.. I took some with my camera but have not had time to even look at them yet..

I worked worked the last 4 milking’s and have the day off today.. Planning to get back to work on the window insulation project I was in the middle of when my daughter got hurt.. and get outside and get some posts in the ground for my arena before the ground gets too frozen… get outside and gather stuff from the edges of the yard to burn.. This weekend my bestest friend is coming over and we have plans for a bonfire.. a big pot of chili and homemade cornbread.. and of course.. Margaritas.. I really like this life..

Happy content little black sheep