strength and moments of weakness

I’ve dealt with my ghosts and I’ve faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I’ve found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I’m at peace with myself
I’ve been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
I’m movin’ on

I’ve lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but they’re always the same
They mean me no harm but it’s time that I face it
They’ll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don’t belong
I’m movin’ on

I’m movin’ on
At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there’s no guarantees, but I’m not alone
There comes a time in everyone’s life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone

I sold what I could and packed what I couldn’t
Stopped to fill up on my way out of town
I’ve loved like I should but lived like I shouldn’t
I had to lose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road
I’m movin’ on

I’m movin’ on
I’m movin’ on

“Rascal Flatts”

I spent years hearing this song.. sometimes crying.. and thinking “One day.. I will find enough strength to move on..  or.. have had enough weak moments.. or be ready to lose everything”

I knew for many years I would leave my husband.. he was never the friend I wanted or needed to have any kind of life.  he was never a mate or a husband no matter how good a wife I tried to be.

I am a strong woman, this song no longer makes me cry… I have never been so at peace with myself…  Despite the years that passed me by.. I am glad things happened the way they did and in the time they did.. I would not be who I am if not for all that brought me to this day.. this moment.  and THIS moment is a good one..

Black Sheep